Sometimes I beat myself up for not fighting harder in certain situations but I know that if I really wanted it as bad as I thought I did, I would have done it. I would have fought. I would have worked my way to the top. I would have given it 110%. If I had really wanted it as bad as I said I did, I would have done something when I could. Yesterday is done. I can do nothing to change whatever happened, I can only learn and move forward. We sink to rise.